2014

2014

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

Okay.

So I currently work as a move assistant in helping seniors pack up their homes and we then unpack them the next day in their new homes.  You see a thing or two when you pack for people.  The occasional DVD tucked into an underwear drawer, food with a 12-year-old expiration date,  skin lightener lotions from the 50's.  Two days ago I start to pack up a book shelf that housed three labeled, ceramic jars behind glass doors.  I look closer at the labels to see first name's and the last name of the couple I was packing up.  The client was watching me as I eye-balled these jars.  She said, "Be very careful with those."  I ask, "Family members?"  She says, "Our dogs...they will be mixed together with us when we go."  This was definitely a first, first, first.

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

Now I think I get it...

For the longest time, I have found such admiration for a certain type of woman and now I think I kinda know a little bit more of why.
  I have long referenced two women in my life that have done 180's (or variations of it) in their career paths.  I lived with a family here in San Diego for almost 3 years when I was in my early 20's.  The wife was a nurse practitioner at UCSD's medical center.  She worked oncology.  It was a tough job and I knew this because of how many funerals she would attend.  I had heard one time that she must have been a great nurse and meant a lot to each family because it was slightly unusual for a nurse to attend their patient's funerals.  She had this job forever and she was paid well.  She left it though eventually to go be a school nurse  at a high school in a low-income community near the border.  I was kinda shocked.  While, yes, she was still in the field of nursing, she definitely took a step down in pay and in rank if you will.  One most likely doesn't need to be a nurse practitioner to work as a school nurse.
  The other person I reference is a good friend of mine who went to school for biology.  She became a microbiologist.  And she was one for many years.  She left that occupation to become a Minister at the church she and I attended.  She stayed there many years to then go back to school for her master's and she now is a career counselor at Duke University.  She has had many lives in one.
   I grew up seeing people around me work in one job and they stayed in that job until they retired.  I never knew why that never resonated with me.  Until now.
  I have done private-duty caregiving for basically a total of 15 years.  It hasn't always been with the elderly, but in the past 10 years it had been.  I moved back to San Diego one year ago this month after being away and I needed a job.  I knew I should look back into this field.  I get paid well and I have experience.  About a month and a half ago, I interviewed for a part-time position to be a companion to a woman who lives 4 miles from my house, the job had good hours and would pay me the best I've ever been paid in this kind of work.  I got an email about a week later saying that the job was mine.  I read this and cried.  I sobbed like a baby.  I didn't want it.  I had known for awhile that I wanted to get out of this line of work and my response was conclusive.  I couldn't go back.  I spoke with my husband about it and he agreed that if I responded like that I needed to pay attention to it.  It was scary saying no to something that seemed so good on paper AND by doing so, in turn I would be saying yes to something I still have no clue as what will be.

     I will tell you this though, I sent that family a three sentence email telling them I wouldn't be taking the job and haven't looked back since.  My spirit, my body, my mind allllll respond in a positive way when I think of what I have done.  My mom said to me, "Just because you are good at something doesn't mean you should do it."  The women I so often reference were really brave because it's hard to make a change when you invest so much of your time, knowledge, energy, experience into something, but they gave me something to turn to when I was scared to do this for myself.